THE CHANGE OF MY LIFE

This is the midway point of my studies here in UTAR. I had never thought or see myself here in UTAR doing a corporate communication degree course. I was thinking of pursuing an engineering degree course and use it as a stepping stone to get into AirAsia academy to be a pilot. Pilot has been my ambition, something that reminds me of who I am, my past and defines my future. That part of how it came to be will be another long story. For this post I just want to talk about my sudden change of course and how it had change or impacts my life.

                This sudden change came as I discovered that my chance of becoming a pilot is as low as impossible and engineering is not my thing. So I took off, march into corporate communication. I was thinking at first that I should be able to handle as I have been working as an event coordinator. The job scope is very similar, I should have an upper hand, there should not be any problem, and should be a smooth ride.

                Then PR happen, I failed. This is the wake up punch. This is when I accepted the fact that I can’t live in search for dream that I need to face the real calling of the real world, be practical. I need to step it up, and start walking, one step at a time. Past PR the following semester, then start running, pulling up my CGPA, setting a few new goals and have a clearer vision on my lifelong goals. Now at this moment, I haven’t took off from the ground yet, but at least i am already on the run way, going through the take off procedure, sky will not be the limit I can break through all of it.

                Till this point, I am glad with the sudden change of course. This not just because of what I have mention but lots more that I have encounter. The friends I met, from semester 1 to semester 5, the transformation of from course mate to friends to best friends to brother and sister to the people that I want to be around for a long long time.

                This bunch of people, there have influence me in many different way. They may be younger, older same age or even some old enough to be my grandparents, but what they gave me was not just a fine memory, but a part of my life that shape me that I would not be me without. Indirectly motivate me to be a better me. Show me the way when my vision is blur. You all may not hear it from me, but i really wish to thank you all. Maybe my ego and my pride is too strong, even so is you all that give me the courage to move on with my ego. What Mr Chan Chai say was right, you are amazing, you are special, I really love you all but if possible, I would not want to wish you all goodbye.

                This is what UTAR and my UTAR Family has gave to me, a chapter of my life that is far better than any book I have read, any movie that I have seen. Four more semesters to go and we will need to part ways, hopefully, this chapter of my life will keep us close.

THE F FACTOR IN FRIEND( FAITH)

   Well for this blog entry, I want to talk about friend. A person can have lots of friend in life and in that big amount of friend there will be the true genuine friend. This type of friend will be those that we wish to be around with or stick around with. This friend may be a big influence in our every decision we make in life about life.
   For me, I feel that for decision that will dictate our life forever, we should be more selfish and make certain decision base on our own future for our own good. We could not make decision just because we want to stay around good company and feel comfortable, feel love, feel wanted. We may enjoy this in the short but in the future when we think back and felt we can have better life if the decision is made otherwise, we may regret and what are friend at that time? Will they remain as your true friend in your heart or you will blame them for the things you never have or never done?
   A true friend will always be true friend no matter what separate them or how far they are separated. You may make a decision for yourself that will require you to leave them now. I believe some where down the road in life, faith will bring friend back together at a certain point. To meet a friend out of the amount of people in the world is already an amazing faith, count the probability.
   I think we should make decision base on our future and benefit of oneself. Friend will always be friend and may even support you decision. Friends, we are fated and I believe even  if we are worlds apart now, faith will bring us back in the most unexpected junction, unexpected place, unexpected time and the most unexpected way.

MIX IT

   Turbo, the movie about a snail that fell into the nitros tank and got his DNA rearrange and became a speed monster. Turbo can go as fast as a F1 super car and participated in the championship and won the tournament. how amazing it is to have a movie for a snail to have speed.
   I felt this is a creative piece of work as how they could put two element that seldom been related to mix it up and produce a film out of it. Who will think of a boring slow snail and put some speed into it you can get an amazing story.
   What i like about it is how people can take two element that does not really mix and stir it up. We have heard about the rabbit and the tortoise story where the slow can win. If you create a speedy tortoise in the story and out run the rabbit, isn't it a better story, well that is my opinion.
   Lots of great invention come from combining elements that first does not have direct link with each other. Like an amphibian vehicle, a car at the same time a boat, car that swim. A water cutter, where the tension of the water gun is so high till it can cut through metal. This two example show that two things that did not have relationship at first been mix up and became one great invention. An amphibian car cost more that those normal car, a water cutter work efficiently as of a laser cutter that cost more.
   Mixing the element up is not such a bad idea where it is actually a great idea where crazy invention of gadget, movie and etc can result from it.

GREATER THAN GREAT

   Today Dato LCW loss due to injury. That is not the main story, the main story is what people say after that. People start to fire beautiful words around, he could do better, is his nerve playing Lin Dan. Some complain about how Lin Dan is allowed to play although he hasn't play for a year. There also some people that take the outcome positively complimenting both the player.
   For me is very simple, I enjoy the game as the two best in the world go all out for the win. Although it could have ended any other way that injury, but you could not neglect the rally before the injury. It was pure class.
   Then there is the part when Lin Dan came over and help Dato LCW. Again there are funny comment from people, again they can see it as acting. At the same time, there will be people that appreciate what he do. they compliment him on his sportsmanship.
   Well in this world there will always be two side to stuff, somehow I feel like a person that enjoy both side where is not at time I am here and next there but at both side at the same time. To be able to accept both point of view great, but to be able to accept both point of view, interpret it and come out with one hybrid point of view is greater than great.

LIFE CHANGE YOU OR YOU CHANGE LIFE

   Is funny how people watch ghost movie and got scared. How people are afraid of ghost. When you talk about it, people will freak out. People that claim the encounter the afterlife and still are afraid of them. People always say if you are afraid to die you are afraid of ghost.

   What i think is that if you are afraid to die, you should be happy if you know ghost existed. Is like telling you that you would not just die and puff, you are gone forever, your soul, your though, your life and everything of yours just end there.

   If you encounter for yourself the afterlife like ghost, you should not be afraid. You should just ask how is it feel and how you could prepare for it. This will change how a person perspective of life all together. It may be good it may be bad, but one thing I know is people will not be afraid to die.

   Why no one think of this? Why if there are people that did think of this and are still afraid? I feel that this could be a limitation to life where you are afraid and you limit yourself and your ability. You may not try many things in life or you may just live a boring life without any excitement. Well hope that people can give a deep thought to what I propose and see how your life will be and how it will change. Let you change your life and not your life change you.

ME? A GOOD QUESTION.

   Who am I? Do I know myself? Tell me about yourself? This is a good question.
   I am simple to understand for many people, loud, noisy, outgoing, friendly, practically a person that is extremely sociable. But when I am serious, I am like another person, a total 180 degree twist. In work or during my days in the uniform body or even in national service, I am strict and discipline where I hold high ranking because of my performance and high level of discipline. When I am with my friend during school or any other time, I am the loudest and energetic fun to the max person.
   Than which am I, where both is to the extreme of the other side. I know myself, I am both. A person does not just live with one character, it can be more depends on how flexible your mind are. I know when I need to be serious and when I should have fun. This is me. I am not clueless or confuse when I am ask of who I really am, simply because I know who I am.
   What that make me the person I am? I am not born and puff I am just like that. I may look loud, colorful and full of life on the outside, but does anyone know what is inside me, my core. Or does anyone know their own core. Well, I know my own core. I have a black dark core that made me who I am today, but black doesn't mean is all that bad. The dark core is just a memory and experience from before that bring me into a state where everything is not right, but I climbed out from there. The courage and the process of climbing out the dark core make me who I am today. I did not throw it away but I kept it as a reminder. It does not affect me anymore but is important to remind me who I was and who I am.
   Sorry that this Dark core is not for me to share with the public. I am already transparent enough to the world, at least let me keep this little bit of my self unknown, hidden deep in me. A sacred memory of myself to only be share with those special one in my life.

"SHOULD WE" I ASK

   I read three different comic, three of it are all Japanese manga. One piece, Naruto and Bleach. One thing about this three manga is the hero will never die and stay dead. Although the hero was defeated and die at a few occasion, but some how they will be revive and get stronger than before. this happen for the three comic that I read.
   I question myself why can't they just let the hero die and they can come out with another, wouldn't that be more interesting. It may even spice up the story. Try to create a main character that is not the hero, try portraying the main as the weak one. Why not, why can't it be done..?
   One thing I realize after asking around is people say what is there to read if the main character die or the hero die than the story will end. I think that people fix them self to one idea and just stick to it. Like the three comic that i read, the story is basically the same, the idea is the same, the way the character behave is the same. people just don't realize or they only accept comic as one idea that is a hero that never die, fight goes on the hero become stronger and win.
   Even comic from the west like spiderman, superman, batman and etc. all are actually the same concept. Should we start asking why is it the same, should we try accepting a comic of another idea, should we let go of our idea of comic and re approach comic from another angle. This is the question I ask when I read comic.